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An Art of Starvation

  • I am in my element. Somedays, I pinch myself, really. I am getting paid (albeit not enough) to work doing what I love, in a career I was meant for. 

    Two years ago now, I was about to turn thirty and completely miserable. I had worked in a field that depressed me (health care) in a job I felt guilty doing (bill collection from sick people), time passed by slowly in my cubie. I remember feeling so.....bored. My bills were paid on time, I had health insurance and I had my two weeks off a year to jet set abroad. Then I did what so many film professionals have done (our shared story) I quit the life I didn't want and I chased after a dream. 

     I remember after I told my dad I was moving to LA and going to film school, he said abruptly -"But you have health insurance". So, I left. I packed up, moved out-being a Northern California girl at heart it was hard adjusting to Los Angeles. Now, I am here-two years exactly to when I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE turned from a complaint to action. 

    So, now I take stock in my life. I have a huge student loan debt, no health insurance and unsteady employment and I am completely OK with that. I am on the path I was meant to be on. I am working on my first feature and building my credits slowly but surely. Someday I hope there are no pauses between gigs, no late bills, no almost getting a non-industry job (cross fingers I have not had to do that yet since graduating from film school).

    My dad still thinks I'm nuts, I think he always will and that is perfectly alright by me. http://studentfilmmakers.network/file/smile/wink.gif" mce_src="http://studentfilmmakers.network/file/smile/wink.gif" alt="" phpfox="image-protect">